Having to deal with the past, to get to enjoy the present, can be challenging.

I'm sure you're familiar with the story about the butterfly's struggle; well, right now I'm struggling, and I hope to be blogging more - very soon. The butterfly needs the struggle to strengthen it's wings so as to fly. 
"A young boy came across a butterfly cocoon and brought it into his house. He watched, over the course of hours, as the butterfly struggled to break free from its confinement. It managed to create a small hole in the cocoon, but its body was too large to emerge. It tired and became still." Read this story here: https://www.lifeandwhim.com/first-moments-blog/2018/the-struggle-makes-you-stronger